Thursday, March 5, 2009

Filled With Regret

Filled with regret is what I am right now. I am not over-the-top with these feelings of regret. Just nudges of it in my soul.

He came over the other night to talk to us about the apartment. My husband offered him a year with conditions.

  • He has to chip in monthly to help pay for the utilities. He is not getting a free ride. He was loaded down with rules.
  • He isn't allowed to have parties.
  • He isn't allowed to drink in front of the other kids.
  • He has to take care of his dog beforehand, i.e. shots.
  • He is the sole person that will walk the dog and feed the dog. I refuse to dog sit.
  • He has to buy his own food and do his own laundry.
  • He is not permitted to come into our side of the house for dinner unless invited.
  • If he chooses at any time to not live there, he will not be permitted to come back. Not ever.
  • The big rule was that he cannot, under any circumstances, needle at, belittle or speak ill of his sister (the 17 year old). He is not permitted to say one word about her in any way unless its genuine and good.

He agreed to all of the rules, surprisingly enough.

I doubt that he will move in. He will probably hightail it elsewhere, and if he does move in, I have a feeling it will be something we'll regret a bit. Time will tell, I suppose.

I re-read what I've written and it makes me sound like a real bitch. I'm not. I want the best for him, and the fact that he is looking for a free ride from someone is not the best thing for him. He needs to fall, get a boo boo and get back up again. If someone constantly catches him, he will never bruise, scar and grow.

In other news, I have a severe sinus infection. It's been hanging on for two weeks now. I went to the doctor's on Monday and he prescribed some antibiotics for me. He said that it will probably take until Friday or Saturday to feel a bit better. I'm hoping so, because my head is throbbing like a mofo. It sucks. The light from the monitor exaggerates the head throb.

Blah!

4 comments:

  1. If you think it's for the best, then it's all good. Maybe the boy needs a trade apprenticeship or to focus on something he enjoys as a job.

    Sinus stuff is horrible, hope you feel better soon.

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  2. He has two jobs currently. He is a tattooist and he also dabbles in electrical work. He wants to go back to school so he can eventually get a much better job. Eh, we'll see.. he's just all over the map lately.

    Sinus stuff blows butt! Oh my gosh.. I hate myself.. lol I've become such a twat since sick.

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  3. I can't say I've had a sinus infection, but I have had my sinuses filled with very fine, very old plaster dust. It felt like someone was trying to chip their way out with a hammer and chisel.

    That's a lot of rules. He can do it easily if he acts his age.

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  4. "Sinus stuff blows butt!" Who can say anything more than that?

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